oh..oh..oh..
lupa yg aku ni ada blog rupanya..

cis..last post dah berkurun lamanya..
kena update dan ugrade balik blog ni..

byk benda yg nak diceritakan..
tapi takde yg emo2 dah..hahaha!

oh..kejap..
midterm masih lagi berlangsung(ahh..betul ke ayat ni? O.o)..
kena tggu midterm habis dulu..baru boleh start tulis blog balik..

sebelum saya kembali mentelaah buku2 lali..eh!
buku lima..eh! silap..buku2 ilmiah..

cuba renung renungkan:

"untuk apakah anda menuntut ilmu?"
"untuk siapakah anda menuntut ilmu?"
"adakah ilmu boleh membuatkan anda bahagia?"

Mati Hidup Kembali

Jalan raya terlampau sunyi
Untuk ku terus bermimpi
Mataku belum mengantuk lagi
Bawa ke mana sahaja kupergi

Tunjukkan ku bulan gerhana
Tiada siapa nak kujumpa
Pendirian tiada kusangka
Tak mengapa oh tak mengapa

Malam semalam gundah gulana
Hari ini hari mulia
Tak pernah daku rasa begini
Seperti mati hidup kembali

Bawakan kuhilang dari ingatan
Hari ini sehingga esok
Tak pernah daku rasa begini
Seperti mati hidup kembali

Agar sepenuh dengan pendirian
Kucapai sebelah tangan
Sebalik awan ada cahaya
Bercahayalah selamanya

Daku tertawa seorang diri
Darah yang mengalir terhenti
Fikiranku melayang-layang
Tiada siapa yang perasan

-Butterfingers-

-nota hidup:
::aku masih lagi di perantauan..
::cuti musim panas sudah hampir tiba..
::tidak berhasrat lagi untuk pulang..
::kerana aku tidak mampu untuk pulang..
::biarlah aku bersendirian di sini..
::tanpa nasi lemak..
::tanpa teh tarik..
::tanpa roti canai..
::tanpa satay kegemaranku..
::tanpa siaran2 telivisyen bahasa melayu..
::tanpa lepak2 di kedai makan bersama rakan2..
::tanpa kasih sayang..
::semuanya sanggup ku tinggalkan..
::kerana impian utamaku masih belum ku kecapi..

February 6..

aku berjalan keluar dari lecture hall..
memikirkan jawapan2 yg telahku lontarkan semasa test sebentar td..
yes..test physics..mmg mind blowing..
entah apela yg aku tulis atas kertas jawapan td tu..
ahh..x kisahla..dah lepas..sudahla..haha..

"aslan!!!"

yes..namaku dipanggil oleh seseorg..
namaku di sini sering dipanggil dgn "z" ditukar kepada "s"..
so..bunyinye "aslan"..lidah mat salleh..mmg xtau nak sebut nama org melayu..
haha..x kisahla..

die berkata..
"im so f**king pissed off right now.."

then secara x sengajanye aku menjawab..
"then go pee..!haha.."

xtaula apsal aku ckp bnda ni..tp mamat ni ignore je..then die cakap..
"i've done all the assignments..tutorials..sample questions..and all the readings..
but still cant nail the test.."
then byk lg r die mencarut..mcm..
(haha..korg bajet2 la sendiri die mencarut ape..)
die sambung lg..

"i want to drop it..i cant do it anymore.."
"i WORK so hard for this and yet..bla..bla..get low mark..bla..bla..sh*t lecture..bla..bla.."

x ingat cmne die cakap..tp conclusionnye die give up r..
ape nak buat..die dah buat byk KERJA..namun xde pape hasil..
so its up to you la..
lps tu aku xtau kenapa..aku belanja die makan..
haih..habis duit aku..
dan hariku bersambung seperti biasa..

February 7..

dalam konsep physics..

WORK = FORCE x DISPLACEMENT (KERJA = DAYA x SESARAN)

if u try to lift a large rock..but you can't bugde it..you might say..
"i've WORKing hard trying to lift that rock.."

ahah!!!
spotted!!!
dalam konsep physics..anda masih tidak melakukan apa2 KERJA..
kerana anda cuba utk mengangkat batu tersebut..dengan certain value of FORCE @ DAYA..
namun magnitud utk displacement @ sesaran masih lg ZERO = 0..
ape2 nombor yg didarab dgn ZERO..jawapannya sudah pasti ZERO..
maknanya total WORK bersamaan dengan ZERO (meaning..there is NO WORK done..)
x kisah la berapa byk FORCE @ DAYA yg dikenanakan..sampai nak terkeluar isi perut pon..
selagi batu tu x bergerak..NO WORK..
haih..kejam betul org2 physics ni..

so berbalik ke kes mamat 6 Februari lalu..
die cakap..

"i WORK so hard for this and yet..bla..bla..get low mark..bla..bla..sh*t lecture..bla..bla.."

ahah!..
pekataan WORK digunakan..oh tidak..
you havn't done any WORK..kerana markah anda masih lg di takuk lama..
jika markah anda meningkat..itu baru betul anda telah melakukan KERJA..
or maybe..u are doing NEGATIVE WORK yg boleh menyebabkan markah anda jatuh merudum bagaikan pesawat boieng 747 jatuh menjunam dengan pecutan g=9.81m/s berpunca daripada GRAVITATIONAL FORCE yg juga melakukan KERJAnya..

fikir fikirkan..

1..2..3..
here goes..

i wrote this post especially for you..
who was once in my heart..
sorry for everything..
everything that i have done to you..
forget about your mistakes..
i couldnt blame you..
because its not your fault..
its just about me..
a guy who doesnt even care about your feeling..
and just keep thinking about himself..
what a selfish me..
i guess i have changed a lot..
not as a person that you love before..

just forget about me..
i dont need the reasons..
why this is happening to me..
i will never be angry with you..
its just a feeling..
a feeling that separates us..
away..apart from being together..
i cant do anything to erase it..
just want you to know that..
i need to correct all my mistakes..
its all came from me..
just cant control myself..
when in front of u..
when seeing you..
when talking with u..
this is what i feel..
a feeling that i love..
but i hate it..
i guess i cant put this in words anymore..
no one will understand..
no one..

but still..
just hoping you can understand me..
there are so much you haven't seen..
and not even feel about me..
i wish you do..
but not anymore..
its too late..
i need to go now..
away from you..
you are too good for me..
and im not that good for you..
im just a stupid guy without no ambition..
you will never know what you will find ahead..
there will be a better future lies beyond the horizon..
waiting for you..

its time for me to leave now..
live my own life without you..
i cant hold on anymore..
i tried to love you..
but i cant..
there will be another person better than me..
waiting for you..
and im really sure..
i cant be as good as you want..
just remember me as your good friend..
no..just an ordinary friend..
who brought your life into deep trouble..

hey..
im talking to you right now..
you know who you are..
because you are the only one i had..
thank you for beeing there..
listening..helping..
please dont love me..
because i dont love you anymore..
goodbye..
the end..



(fade into the darkness...wOosshhh...)

...

Ponteng Chemistry punye seminar..dan menyiapkan kerja2 tagging ni..hahaha..

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be ?
- sigh..haih..perempuan..pantang nampak laki yg lg ensem dan kaya..terus cabut..

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be ?
- tidur awal dan bangun awal..kawen awal pon boleh gak..haha!

3. Whose butt would you like to kick ?
- like i said before.."ass"-ignment..

4. What would you do with a billion dollars ?
- belanja rakan2 baikku..

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend ?
- argghh..best friend aku semuanye lelaki..kalau aku ni gay boleh la kot..haha~

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone ?
- being loved first..then loving someone..

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love ?
- ah..give up already..huhu..

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do ?
- i know thats the best for her..keep going..(hah..yg ni mmg penah berlaku baru2 ni..sape2 yg tau senyap2 sudah..haha)..

9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? your gf/bf or an actress/actor ?
- act with myself jela..huhu..

10. What takes you down the fastest ?
- food..

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time ?
- dah tua sikit kot..bergaya dgn jeans dan kereta mewah..rumah banglo 5 tingkat..biase jela tu..dan live performance utk semua peminat2..haha..

12. What’s your fear?
- that "girl"..huh~

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is ?
- Shak..gila dgn skuternye kot..
Fikri Rezzi..heh..isu sensitif..haha~

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor ?
- jodoh dan rezeki di tangan tuhan..

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up ?
- uhh..assignment x siap lagi..alamak..dah terlepas kelas plak..aduhh~

16. Would you give all in a relationship ?
- thats what i've done before n it sucks!

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick ?
- cari lain jela alan wei..

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done ?
- forgive yes..but i'll never forget..because i still have a good memory..

19.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
- entahlah..xde mood nak jawab..haih~

20.List 5 people to tag :
1. sidqi
2. yusrinniza (reen)
3. mimi naterah
4. tengku (syazwan @ kasturi)
5. acap dota

nak buat ke xnak ske hati korg la..hahaha..
yg penting..aku mahu tidur..huargghhh~

assalamualaikum..

hahaha..
happy new year to all..
apakah azam tahun baru anda???
well..two things in my mind..
sleep early..wake up early..n less computer game (especially DOTA)..haha..

dont really know how i can still spare some of my time writing this blog..
still too early to kick off some "ass"-ignments..
i dont want to get my mind blown like last term..

so i need at least a week to warm up again..
knowing that i cant run from problems..i need to face them one on one..
haiyaa..cant face all of them together maa..boleh mati wOo..
need to arrange myself and settle them one by one..
yeah..thats what i need to do..

whoever thinks that he/she is my friend..meaning to all my friends..
please support and talk to me..really need you all..i dont want be alone anymore..enough..(ini bukan ayat desperate ok..haha..)

thats all for now..need to continue reading the physics lab manual and study for calculus quiz for tomorrow..gtg..wish me luck!

assalamualaikum..

p/s: bulan 5 ni balik malaysia naik kapal..jimat duit..haha~

Assalamualaikum~



percutian hampir tamat..
penyeksaan university akan bermula kembali..
aku tidak akan gentar..

sekarang masih di ottawa (capital city of canada)..
bersama kawan2 yg sememangnya aku kenal di taylors dahulu kala..

hahaha..menumpang di rumah geng carleton university yg di luar nampak kecil seperti reban ayam..tetapi di dalam memang besar seperti banglo 3 tingkat..lengkap dengan dua buah tv..playstation 3..x-box..wii..dan juga laptop2 yg sering tersedia utk gamerz2..
sesuai utk pelajar2 yg ingin mencari ketenangan..

jamuan free..
bowling..
boxing day..
futsal..
laser tag..






new year bakal menjelama..(bakal disambut malam ini)..
apakah azam baruku?
entahlah..x pernah terlintas utk memikirkannya..
mmg malas pon nak pikir..
tiada ape2 yg aku inginkan lagi..
semuanye asyik x menjadi..haih..
mengeluh..itu jela yg aku selalu buat..
tapi x mengapelah..aku suka keadaanku begini..

apakah azam baru anda?
fikir fikirkan~


p/s: kakiku hampir lumpuh..jalan terkengkang kengkang..
aku perlukan tongkat ataupun kerusi roda..lebih bagus kalau ada tukang urut..

aduhh..sakitnya.. =(